Behind the ribs: Archive

Mar 10th

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2012; a new beginning?

Its been a long time since youve last heard of me and life got the best of me. Really,being so busy since the start of school helped me realize that I am not defined by whats happened to me. I used simple past because I feel like all that is behind me. So for 2012, I dont want a restart; I just want to keep on AND get better scores at school!

Jan 6th

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I feel like reaching out to people there....

It’s weird how sometimes I feel lonely and then I arrive here. The website I consider everyone is its own island, never touching another one’s, at least, not where it counts. I want to be able to exchange with people here, but also in real life. I told people about my problem, but they never seem to reach out toward me. They act as if what I did never exist. As if it was only in my...

Nov 20th

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Nov 17th

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With Ed, I rediscovered the art of lying. There is no limit since your own scrupules are crushed down by the vital need to slowly waste away. I didnt realize I was constantly lying to my friends, family and above all to myself before it was too late. Even when I have the choice between the truth and the lie, I automatically lie through my teeth. Even if it’s a white lie, with no purpose,...

Sep 15th

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So I started university. So far,I like the concept...

I really think the charge(over charge!) will help me not to think of restricting since I already do not have much time to eat… Today I went to a vietnamese restaurant and ate so Much! But Im still proud of mysf and next week I start training at the college’s gym.

Sep 3rd

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Reblog if you're an eating disorder recovery blog

Aug 26th

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I hate mexican restaurant. Oh and I puked.

I dont wanna say that I meant to puke/purge but god it felt so good! Maybe because I was sick from my egg allergy(when I asked repeatedly to the waiter if my order contained any eggs) or because otherwise I would have consummed at least 2000 calories for my day. Thing is that after eating, I went to the bathroom and considered purging everyhing but a) the toilet seemed too old to accept all this...

Aug 25th

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Aug 24th

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Aug 23rd

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Watch

wh0rerific: littlerevenge: Harry Potter in 99 Seconds. too legit to quit! A bit random for this tumblr but I wanted to share the laugh/ amazing feeling this video gives me.

Aug 23rd

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Doing some intense filtering of the dashboard

thecomfortofnothing: It’s time to let go of the past and move forward. Positive blogs, recovery blogs and healthy blogs are best for me right now and for the most part they’re what I’m drawn to. The person I want to be is positive, healthy and recovered. Steering clear of the destructive side of tumblr will help me get there.

Aug 23rd

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Aug 22nd

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Aug 22nd

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Aug 21st

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Aug 21st

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Aug 19th

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It is now widely accepted in my family that I am...

Yeah ED, you just gained a few of supporters in our fight til the death of one another. Le soupir(sigh). Seriously though, how am I supposed to find the strenght to recover completly when I feel that the only things i get from this is pure FAT! Do you have a good list of reasons to motove myself to keep in check wih my recovery?

Aug 18th

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Aug 17th

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blue skies: (i'm being obnoxious and deleting,... →

spacebetweenclouds: I’m supposed to have a snack right now but I don’t know what to do. There is this internal dialogue going on that I can’t make sense of at all. I need to eat. No. You don’t. I need to eat so I can stay healthy for cross country. You’ll run faster if you weigh less. I need to eat so I can… I know how it feels and seriously… I’ve been eating properly...

Aug 17th

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My dash is dead :/

shes-starting-again: Reblog if you’re in recovery from an eating disorder or self harm, or are a positive body image blog.

Aug 17th

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positivity-in-recovery: you are a pro-recovery or pro-positivity blog. <3

Aug 17th

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Aug 17th

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Euphemism of the day

euphemism of the day: A conversation I had with my sister about me going back to run/train and shit. She asked me if I wanted to lose weight and I answered ” I only want to get a proportionate body. My arms are so tiny!” Thing is that I thought to myself that my legs definitely need to lose a few pounds of fat or more toned. Is that a non-recovery thought? Does it seem like I...

Aug 17th

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Aug 16th

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Aug 16th

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Aug 15th

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Aug 15th

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Aug 14th

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The seafood diet.

-I’m on a seafood diet. - How does it work? -Well it’s simple, I see food and then I eat it. One guy I met this weekend told me so. Is it a kind of secret among other beings not sick? So I just have to follow these rules, eat what I see? Won’t I become what I see then?(which is a rolling fat) People always tell me that I’m thin. Skinny even. BUT I DON’T...

Aug 14th

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I am officially fat as said by my sister.

Meh. I have to think that I am now comfy, since my ribs no longer show. I almost have the eating down, but it’s still hard to know when I’m hungry and when I’m not. So I just eat at the same time as the others.

Aug 12th

Aug 9th

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“I could eat half a cupcake (150), or a quarter (75). I could scrape off the...”

– Wintergirls (via shrinkinglilly) So very true. Each day I try and some would say I success, into eating more and more, gaining back the weight I lost. But If Im winning, why do I feel worse each day, watching my ribs disappear?

Aug 9th

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